Music

I love music. I love listening to music. I love creating and performing music. If you do not like any kind of music I probably will not like you at all. Whatever. Anyway, there is something about music that keeps driving me towards an ultimate end. I think this "something" is the fact that I will constantly improving my abilities and searching for the perfect beat. For example, I have been playing guitar since I was 9 years old but I have gotten rusty since son was born. I also can keep a beat on the drums, but I would not be able to perform well for a crowd. This is because I am rusty on the guitar and I am not a good enough drummer to improvise beats or even have enough different beats for all the songs that I have guitar parts for. This may seem like a problem at first, and probably is, but I know what I have to do to fix it: practice. I just need to practice a lot to get back to the guitar playing abilities that I used to have and practice will help me with my drumming skills.

Music is my drugs. Instead of doing drugs to escape life or help deal with life, I use music to escape or to express my reaction towards the events that happen in life. I don't have any problems listening to music other than finding music that I like to listen to. I do, however, have problems creating my own music with the band that I have currently.

I am in a band here in Springfield Missouri call "Strictures."My band mates are often difficult to work with. Most of the time I do not have anything to do with the band until I actually go on stage to perform their work. We seem to be incompatible to the point that we cannot work together and make new music collaboratively. Anything that I bring to the table such as new basslines or anything, always gets rejected and criticized. When this happens I just turn my ideas into a song of my own and release it to the public as my "side-project." This doesn't bother me like some may think, because everyone, EVERYONE, tells me that they like my music better. What does bother me about this is: I can't seem to work with my best friends. They ARE my best friends and I love them dearly, but we cannot work together on the things that we all love more than almost anything. They just want me to perform their music because they have told me that they think I am the good looking one and I actually dance at our shows. This is an insult to me. Not the part about them calling me good looking, but the part about them thinking I am okay with their intentions.

To me, it seems that their intentions are to have me show up to band practice only to be a hype man. We do not accomplish anything during practice other than watch each other smoke cigarettes while "the drummer" just opens YouTube to entertain "the singer." To me, this is not a practice at all. This is just some friends hanging out listening to OTHER PEOPLES MUSIC.

I am so fed up with this crap that I am about the quit the band. We are playing every Monday night at the Magic Bean on Glenstone right now. Show up and ask for Jacob if you don't believe me. I will be showing up to play with my band today, Monday the 9th and if we as a group cannot find a solution or at least acknowledge this major issue then I will be officially quitting the band.

Since these guys are awesome people, I will continue to help all of their endeavors. However, I will only help them with our Monday night gigs by either opening or showcasing the night with MY OWN music.